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Tis The Season….
Well I can’t say I didn’t live this year waking up every day in shock that I was given yet another day in this world. I tend to take every breath as if it will be my last, no regrets just testing myself.
The holiday season is generally hard for me for many reasons. As an adolescent it was alway my job to take down the Christmas tree and clean up the remanence. The year it changed from excitement to horror was when my stepfather slapped me after he steeped on a pine needle that was left on the floor. My stepsister jumped on his back and boy was it a crazy scene. LOL! I will never forget the love, yet shock and complete disbelief that my stepsister totally stood up for me. I have always been the brunt of my mother’s significant others from childhood. So this came as no surprise.
December 1st, 2010 my dog Lola went missing. I would have to say Christmas 2010 was the hardest one to date. She unfortunately was never to be seen again.
As life went on my brother and his girlfriend had a son in 2010. In 2012 I made it a mission to spend Christmas with my nephew. He brought back the holiday spirit. I couldn’t wait until Christmas! He loved seeing his Auntie so much. The first Christmas I had them come out to California and we all went to Disneyland. Not the best time of the year to visit, it was a little crowded, but we made the best of it. My brother and I have never really been that close. We have never had the type of relationship that I would’ve wanted. I am the youngest of four. So being able to spend time with him and get love and affection from my nephew was so amazing. Kind of odd though, I can’t lie, it was like a mini-me of my brother. Lol.
So every year after that I always wanted to spend Christmas with nephew. As time went on and my brother got comfortable with the job I had secured for him and his financial struggles were no longer a concern, he just stopped calling and faded away. No matter how much you think a person will change or they have changed, once they get what they want they pretty much have no use for me.
I don’t know how many times I have gone out of my way to help someone out of the pit of despair they have fallen into, shown them the path less traveled, and then they all of a sudden forget how they got there. My family has always been like that, but still no matter how many times they do it I always seem to help. Now that they are all set and comfortable they have no need for me or is it that they are just too busy with their families that they simply forget about me? Who knows, I have always known from a young age the only family I’ll ever have is the one I create.
I have decided that holidays are just another day. Now that I am home-based in Las Vegas I can actually live the holidays just like another day. I get to wear a costume in public and get a little wild with my besti Richelle Ryan. She loves themed events! This year Richelle has given me the Christmas I have only dreamt of my entire life. She seriously is a blessing to know and have in my life. I always tell her she is my soulmate. I actually got Christmas gifts to wrap and put under my Charlie Brown tree. She is going to stay the night and wake up Christmas morning and unwrap gifts!!! So exciting to have finally found someone that is as crazy, kind hearted, and giving as myself. Christmas Eve Richelle and I are going to the woman’s shelter here in Vegas to donate some things that they need for the families trying to get out of bad situations and on their feet.
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